Why Did I Say It?

It's amazing how emotions change
At such a drastic tilt.
First I feel a violent anger,
And Then remorseful guilt.

I wish so bad as I lay down
In my mire of sin and shame
That what I said to bring me here
Wasn't mine to blame

But what's said is said and my sin is shown
To all who witnessed it
And instead of a throne of a conquerer
In a villain's chair I sit.

Please don't judge my insolence
I'm not always this way
I try so hard to be like Christ
But I fail every day.